Down With the Sickness

My mom says that I might have H1N1
I'm staying away from everyone!!!
I highly doubt that i have it...
wouldn't you have to have a fever

cold

This is the time of year when the leaves change colors and
I start to straighten my hair and paint my toe nails wacky colors.
This is the time of year when my room gets cold and it's harder to get out of bed
because I'm far too content with the warm cocoon i have made myself out of my comforter.
Times like these I get homesick and wish I were to still back in New Orleans, soaking up the warm weather, riding my bike in the breeze and finding a cool shade to sketch and take photos.
Alas I live in Ohio and I must make due with what i am given.

Rant of the Day

I hate the word Shawty!!!
First of all I'm not short!!!
My doctor says I'm quite tall for my age.
Who ever made that stupid fucking word needs to be stabed in the face!!!
I was in the parking lot a school and it's always full and it must have been a
miracle that we found a spot but
I was helping my friend Ruth with her window and this guy pulls up and says
"Hey shawty...SHAWTY are you getting ready to leave"
I wanted to go to his window and stab him with my pencil!!!
Talk like you have gone to school..please
and that was my rant of the day

Art Classes

So today I took my second art class and I failed...
Well okay I didn't fail but it felt like I did
Realistic drawing isn't one of my strong parts
but it's okay because I'm here to work on that.
One of the mistakes I did was compare my drawings
to one of the best drawers in the class...it's on of my bad traits I guess
and once again I felt intimidated and wanted to crawl back into a little ball
then all of my pictures looked like crap!!!

The More You Grow the More Life Gets Hard

College is a money sucker!
I have never been so tired and I only have 3 classes
I hate being at home...
These are the times when you grow a pair
and just deal with the way things are
I want to leave so bad...
i'm just afraid of leaving everyone of my friends behind

work

Hope abides; therefore I abide.
Countless frustrations have not cowed me.
I am still alive, vibrant with life.
The black cloud will disappear,
The morning sun will appear once again
In all its supernal glory.

Seclusion

Last week I thought about my life and friends
Do I know the difference between friends and acquaintance?
It's been a week since I have been on facebook and myspace
Next week I'm going to try and not to talk or call people on my cell phone or text
I want to know the difference between real friends and people who smile in your face to get things
I realize I'm paranoid of the friends I have,
like are they talking about me behind my back?
do they like me?
Why do they like me...what is it about me that they like?
Am I getting on their nerves?
Things like that make me so scared of getting close to people
I don't have many friends because I push them away
What I'm about to do is a test to all of my friends....the ultimate test